Me, moving to Canada !!!!!!!!!

Ok ,it's just an idea and it probably won't happen anytime soon and yes I defiantly need to work and save some money bt still the idea scares the hell out of me.u don’t know me ppl.i love routine .I've always hated the first day of skool,first day of a new semester in college. I love things to stay the same. I hate change.bt now that I'm a couple of months away from starting my new job. I'm starting to feel like I should have some sort of plan for the rest of my life. Is it too soon .maybe!! But still now that I'm the only one left at home with mumy n dady I'm starting to feel that the idea of them both settling back in hargaisa in a couple of yrz is getting closer(n they often remind me of that fact, specially abo)
I'm a typical Somali, my cousins live all over the world, my siblings live in Europe, north America and Asia. I was born n raised here and for some reason despite the weather (unbearably HOTT)and the treatment (it could be really unfair sometimes)I'm still ok with it. I'm not one those who think the gates of happiness will open up the moment you step foot in America, Canada, UK or any other country. I'm realistic. I believe you have to work to take what you deserve and I love it here b/c despite some minor set backs I really didn't work that hard so in comparison to others my life was relatively easy (so far).
And yes I forgot to add ,my Sis keeps telling me that Canada is toooooooo cold ,I'm not sure I can managee there…….

Uh..i guess I'll just have to wait and see what happens cuz u never know maybe someone will come out of nowhere n propose .(As iffffff)lolllllll

Ps:I would love to get my MA is modern or children's literature .bt ppl keep telling me that there is no future in literature n that linguistics is the way to go. I love translation also…uh I'm confused. I'm sure that in a yr or so I'll know more about this ,,khair inshallah


What is up with girls and their pity jealousy?????!!!!!

Sometimes it doesn't matter what u did n where u went ,n how much fun it was, they always try to make you feel as if it's nothing or try t compete with u on something soo stupid or find something wrong with everything u've done ….
I gave up trying to understand them a long time ago, I decided to stay away n just keep a very small group of friends..
The sad part is when you're close friend catches the bug and tries to put u down(unintentionally maybe, I duno)that's why I find it soo refreshing to have someone in my life like Zee who I know wishes me the very best no matter what happens in my life ...miss u 7OBY
Note to moi: Mimi don't let anyone get to you.OKKKKK ;-) macc

3an miii

Mabrouk to moiiiii

I finally graduated ,4 yrs of hanging with my friends ,skipping lectures and dropping courses are finally Overrrrr…wow what a relieve !!!

My practical course was

HELLL…Foe the first time EVER I had to work. I mean REALLY work. planning lessons ,buying stuff for the kids, planning projects and paying a daily visit to the mall to get inspired by some new activities or new games .9 credits is no joke ppl. ALL my hard work paid off and I got an A (Smile)

Why keberka ppl?

A friend of mine who used to think that she's too good to teach, n
often bragged about how her college s soo modern n mine aint is apparently going .ixem ixem become a teacher herself. I think it finally sunk in that we're both B.A. holders.lolllllll

Changeeeeeeeeee!!

3weeks ago, I thought that my life changed ,that I've suddenly turned into a new person(a better one for that matter).I was so busy I stopped watching TV(for a TV addict ,this iz a major change).I barely had time to breath, think or talk to my family.
3weeks later, here I am. The same old girl. Still feeling that nothing changed. Yes I do have more responsibilities now and have cut down on many things during the week .but I still feel that nothing changed. Where I'm I getting this feeling from??(Routine).it's amazing how quick I've settled into my new job, yes I hate some ppl there n I've made almost no friends(one or 2 doesn't count when u work with dozens of WOMEN..bt still I don't think I've made enemies(yet).I'm not too friendly. I can't be fake(I'm Somali, I can't help it :-/) I'm really honest and quiet nice once you get to know me bt till then ..I like to keep to myself and hope to make a good impression on my superiors.
I'm still in a training process so I won't get paid until I work there 4 at least 6 months. I can bear that I think. But it bothers how some ppl assume that just b/c I'm a trainee they have the right to walk all over me. Well guess again ya xabiby!!!!!

WAAN WAYNADAY!!

I'm a big girl

……..So I turned 22 last week and I feel GREAT. Never did I imagine in a million yr that I'll ever experience a HAPPY birthday. Lol

normally,i sit in my room all alone feeling completely miserable thinking about how I didn't change one bit from how i was the yr before. But thiz yr i did change(or i think so) ..woww..Finally I'm starting to feel that my life is on track.


Do not judge plz

I'm sick and tired of my Ppl judging me when they find out what my JOB iz.i'm sorry that I didn't choose to become a nurse like the 1000 girl I know(mashallah I admire how brave they r dealing with blood n all that).n maybe my job is hard and under paid n maybe I didn't exactly Choose it(I got a scholarship).but still, I learned to accept it and I'm trying to stay positive b/c when I start working next Week inshallah.i'm planning TO LOVE IT .OK


I do not need a boyfriend

I don't. I'm happy being by myself and I don't plan on getting one anytime soon. I'm happily single. (Ill keep saying that over n over b/c maybe then I'll start believing it.)Loll
On a more serious note .I went out with a couple of girls the other day and they made me feel like a saint. One was fishing for the most allegeable bachelor to pay her BILLS. but no luck since she has dated most of the guyz in the mall. The other one was married who befriended a 19 yr old who's desperately in love with her to raise her selfestam.THESE ppl are not my friends and I'm not sure I want to be seen with them again. God knows ppl might start thinking I'm one of them.but honestly after the whole ordeal that
they made me go through with every jerk,loser following us the entire time (on foot and in my car).i honestly thought I'm cured.i mean who would want to be with any of those jerks .but on my way homeI stopped at the grocery store and saw a 6 feet tall guy
(love tall guys, I'm tall myself)black (his skin is the exact shade of my favorite chocolate bar .yumy)

who is driving a BLACK HUMMER(my favorite car, I literally
get dizzy when I see that car.I'M NOT KIDDING.)
And bam I'm back to singing my favorite SONG ..I don't…..BLA BLA BLA

I'm I overreacting ….?!!

My best friend and I just had a heated discussion about and I quote ' my obsession' of my new car while I only see it as a normal thing…
For a while I've been driving my old sister/brother's car that belonged to my dad at some point.
MEANING...IT WAS AN OLD CAR and it didn't look very well on the outside either.
On the other hand, My new car is a brand new model and it's really nice it's no lancer or corolla 'Somalis favorite cars' .it's way more expensive and it was my father's graduation present for me. No one has ever given me a gift like that .I've only had it for less than two weeks, and the fear of getting into an accident and trashing my car never leaves me 4 one mint. The problem is my friend asked if I could give her a ride somewhere (to a really crowded place)of course I panicked and said I really don't think I can do it .then I thought about it for a mint and figured that it won't that crowded in the morning but the fact that I've never been there by myself scares me ,and even though that she knows how to get there .I had nightmares of her showing me the way and me maybe misinterpreting something she said and causing an accident .I don't know. I just don't take directions too well while driving (my mum started this whole irrational fair by saying: weren't we suppose to go there (WHEN WE PASS THE DAMN EXIT)UKH
Anyways I told my friend that I'm really not sure about this and then she freaked me out by saying how ppl CAN CRASH INTO MY CAR or scratch it or whatever when I'm not around and I should take it easy or whatever .anyways I had a (A PANICK ATTACK )I 'm not kidding. I couldn't breath 4 a mint and I couldn't believe HOW could she could scare me like this .I'm already scared and I don't NEED anyone to make me feel even worse .I love my friend ,she used to understand me better than ANYONE BT I'M SCARED NOW SHE thinks I'm rubbing this in her face(me having a car while she can't have one right now).I don't want to be the 'drama queen' or be overprotective bt I honestly don't think it's my fault.
I'M HAVING THE BEST TIME OF MY LIFE. I loveeee my car. I love going out and racing with my friends, hanging and all that .even going to the supermarket is more fun b/c of my new ride. just b/c I don't WANT someone with dirty feet to get into my car or just b/c I'm scared of going to new places doez NOT make me a weirdo.doez it?

Age is just a number

I remember being 13 and looking up to my sister in university as a heavenly creature. In my eyes she could do no wrong and she knew everything.
I was very proud of her. Later on it turned out she is just a human. She made mistakes, regretted them.
And tried to put her life back together.
This seems like a billion years ago. Somehow I thought that being older will feel different. I'll know everything (or at least think I do).I'll be more confidant and I'll trust my decisions. That didn't happen.
On the contrary, I often feel like the same old girl. And I don't appreciate ppl looking at me as an adult. Or a child. I'm neither. No matter how old I get. It seems as if I'm always in an awkward age.
Its funny how last year, I was just another girl who is not the least bit interested in marriage and no one would even mention that word to me. At that time, I was considered too young to let such matters distract me.
All of a sudden, things started to change, Ppl stated to pray (make dua)
That I find a good Man .others stated to wonder if I'm available or not. My cousin started to emphasize on the importance of me learning how to cook. ect
When I was younger, I took comfort in the fact that most Somali girls who are a few yerz older than me were all single. I would tell my Arab friends "Somalis are not like you guys, we don't feel like sum poor spinsters the moment we hit 19 or 20"
But in the past few years, things started to change. Now, it is considered very normal for girls to get married at any age (20-23-29-35).it is all about your naseeb (fate).
I just feel that (over night) I'm a big girl, old enough to obsess about marriage (even though Allah knows I'm not even thinking about it).how could I ??
When I don't feel like a day older than my 18 birthday.