2day while I was dreaming of (((I can't remember but I sure felt like S!!!!T for waking up so it must've been a great1)my mum woke me up not screaming or anything but using that mums calm voice(for a disaster has just happened))so before I even processed what she said I got up wore my 3abaya and scarf and headed for the door, then I realized I can't find my car keys..((God. this has never happened BEFORE ...I know I'm messy and crazy but my keys r always in the same place …EXCEPT for 2day of course…my mum suggested to look in my bag((I wanted to yell I've already looked there but I was desperate so I looked again and guess what MY KEYS WERE THER..UHH I was obviously still sleepy so I didn’t look wellllll…I don't need this now... I'm in a hurry ..so in the mean time mum filled me about dads situation..(it turned out his car broke down and he wanted me to pick him up)))OF COURSE I don't mind helping my dad I'm not a demon child……..!!!!!!!!!!!but maybe if I had more time to sleep …the chances of me having an accident will diminish ...Anyways…I grabbed my phone and called my dad… after the fifth ring… feeling pissed..I wanted to screammmmm((dad r u loving standing in the burning sun,,,pick up the phonee)))by then I was sneezing like crazy,,, nd I was feeling dizzy and tired like I've never been ..nd I noticed my dads name did not appear in the caller's idée..n it turned out that this whole timee I've been calling some1 else ((sorry wallahii for walking u upp in the early morning ..me=very sorry)))sooo finally I got a hold of my dad and he showed where he was n all,,,nd b/c of the circumstance. my usually not very chatty dad was talking to me the whole time(((soo what do u think is wrong with the car..it's defiantly the ....or …..(he mentioned some weird names n I'm assuming that he's talking about the car noww….uhhhh)seriously what I'm suppose to say I'm not a freaking mechanic and I love u dad((but I don't give a damn about the stupid car ,,I just neeeeeeeed to go bak to bed)))so I did my best (which is nodding and answering him in every 2 minutes….uhhhhh..at last ..home ..sweet home..i reached my room and realized I can't sleep) now so normally I wouldn’t care but b/c I had an exam ..I neeeeeded to sleep to feel fresh (so guess wat I did))I forced myself to sleep. .literally nd woke up every 30 mintes. .then at some point I decided I can't study now,,,I'm screwed and the panicky feeling woke me upp…n INSTEAD OF STUDYING..I'M HERE..WRITTING THIS BLOGG…WHATTTTT…!!!!
CHA CHA....BA BYEEE EVERY1..I HAVE A LOT 2 DOOO…UKKKKKKK
Tuesday, May 29, 2007
Monday, May 28, 2007
SOMALILAND
wowww..Somaliland party in kW was last week…the best party I've ever been to in ages…the party was held near hawally park in a really cool hall, extremely neat and big enough to hold the mix crowd. I was a bit late b/c I had to take my cousin who on a wimp decided not to come. And man. It took me forever to convince her to goo,not only that. But I was looking forward to attend that party. No way IN HELL..that I'm going to miss it cuz u had a stupid fight with one of u're close friends..who u'll make up with 2moro and I'll just sit here and die!!!!!!!!!!!!..i took matters in to my own hand,,nd didn’t give her time to argue..well ..the fact that she wanted to go BADLY didn't hurt of course…soo..where r we…yappp,,the party and me arriving late,,it didn't really matter every1 was already there and you can feel the eyes on you soo why I'm I complaining. I love ATTENTION!!!HEHEHE
I sat there with her and said hii to all her friends ,who seem sweet but not very friendly to strangers …uhh..whatever..like I care..i saw a couple of nice girls and my cousins were there as well .of course ..every1 I know was there….
God. ..even though I really don't listen to Somali music. I kept moving with the songs and I had to keep reminding myself..there r men infront on me.. ((me dancing in my scarF uhhhhh,,lets just say that it wasn't a pretty picture.)).at some point I turned to my cousin and said..if I kept on dancing can u slap me across the face..maybe then I'll wake up!!!
Uhhh what else..i really dunno wat else to say,the feeling of belonging and the deep love of mY country filled my heart..i was one of the few ppl who sang along will most of the songs..SOOO..it's MY LAND..WHY CAN'T I SING ..HA!!
Somaliland HANOLATO
I sat there with her and said hii to all her friends ,who seem sweet but not very friendly to strangers …uhh..whatever..like I care..i saw a couple of nice girls and my cousins were there as well .of course ..every1 I know was there….
God. ..even though I really don't listen to Somali music. I kept moving with the songs and I had to keep reminding myself..there r men infront on me.. ((me dancing in my scarF uhhhhh,,lets just say that it wasn't a pretty picture.)).at some point I turned to my cousin and said..if I kept on dancing can u slap me across the face..maybe then I'll wake up!!!
Uhhh what else..i really dunno wat else to say,the feeling of belonging and the deep love of mY country filled my heart..i was one of the few ppl who sang along will most of the songs..SOOO..it's MY LAND..WHY CAN'T I SING ..HA!!
Somaliland HANOLATO
Opposite attract. Maybe not!!
2day I was discussing an interesting topic with my friend.:: what makes ppl become friends ,how does that happen…by chance…for a reason or.. by
determination(asking that person to be your friend))…dunno I haven’t done it thought but maybe other ppl have so I have 2 include it((weirdoos))!!!…
back to my topic,,,I found that am always looking for the same qualities that I have in ppl ,and It suddenly hit me… that is why I'm not making (or looking for)tons on friends, really!!!!!
And the shocking part is, I can sense my type ((loll, I'm not sure if I can say my type. I sound a bit boyish)) to explain more. The only ppl who I've gotten really close with r not very social, they r trust worthy. Trust worthy. I KNOW I'VE SAD IT TWICE..BUG OFF..!!!! even if they sound very open and friendly from the outside ,they have a lot to deal with in the inside, if u saw my girll ..(A)U WILL SWERA that she knows every single girl in her college. That's how friendly she is. but the only one who she lets inside, is myself…luv u girlllll…there's my other girllllll(you no who you r ..lolllll))),,.we have so much in common ,,,it's getting scary…!!!!!! Even our differences r not that big. Nothing I can't handle…heheheee..i always wonder if I had a sister close to my age. would I feel so attached to my friends. Or...is it normalllllll,,,,I need an answer.quick..God…..i think I have alot of soul searching to do ,,
but NOT noww after the finals:-(
determination(asking that person to be your friend))…dunno I haven’t done it thought but maybe other ppl have so I have 2 include it((weirdoos))!!!…
back to my topic,,,I found that am always looking for the same qualities that I have in ppl ,and It suddenly hit me… that is why I'm not making (or looking for)tons on friends, really!!!!!
And the shocking part is, I can sense my type ((loll, I'm not sure if I can say my type. I sound a bit boyish)) to explain more. The only ppl who I've gotten really close with r not very social, they r trust worthy. Trust worthy. I KNOW I'VE SAD IT TWICE..BUG OFF..!!!! even if they sound very open and friendly from the outside ,they have a lot to deal with in the inside, if u saw my girll ..(A)U WILL SWERA that she knows every single girl in her college. That's how friendly she is. but the only one who she lets inside, is myself…luv u girlllll…there's my other girllllll(you no who you r ..lolllll))),,.we have so much in common ,,,it's getting scary…!!!!!! Even our differences r not that big. Nothing I can't handle…heheheee..i always wonder if I had a sister close to my age. would I feel so attached to my friends. Or...is it normalllllll,,,,I need an answer.quick..God…..i think I have alot of soul searching to do ,,
but NOT noww after the finals:-(
Friday, May 11, 2007
A friend... OR A colleague
As I might've mentioned be4 ,the life style enforced by parents doesn’t give me the chance to socialize and hang with my as friends as much as I want 2..also,I was never a big fan of the 12 girls group who say that they're ..(((best friends )but know nothing about each other ,,that’s why I was more than pleased by the few friends I had,, ,specially a particular girl who shares my name. but RECENTLY….
I'm staring to feel more and more confused each day. I hate being clueless. I need to be in control of my life or at least know where its headed….MY PROBLEM IS. I haven’t heard from my very close friend in a couple of weeks and I'm staring to get worried. .in her defense I could give u 10 thousand reasons why she cant keep in touch in the moment(((the finals r just around the corner + other reasons I wont dream on mentioning in my blog))…….that's not the real problem…I think for a while now I started to feel that our lives r very different. we hardly share the same interests anymore(((I really can't tell. Did she grew up real quick or I'm I a bit immature…)))I don't mind about all that,, ,I just like TO BE NEEDED…I completely understand about how logical ,rational ,,she is. but for some stupid reason I wish she could put that aside for a minute and agree to do something. Just b/c she missed me. not after everything else is in order and Finally she remembered she had a friend. .uhhh…THE NEW PROBLEM I'M FACING NOW is how can I tell the difference between a friend and a colleague…seriously that’s a big problem(((and don't give me the whole colleague first ,,later on a friend))!! What !!! I've known these girls 4 over a yr now and sometimes I feel THAT I',M totally and utterly LOST…the main thing 4 me now is that I don’t want to loose contact with sum of them.. specially ((…… n…..)I love how u can see their face changing when they see you, wanting to spend time with u just b/c of who you are and not b/c they want something of u(((I met 2 many blood suckers in my life ,I'm truly praying that they didn't scar me for life)…I genuinely feel that am at a crossroad now, I can either continue to be friendly or I could do more ,I could initiate plans to meet them somewhere(((I 've already done that with some of them)or maybe do something simple like call them first instead of following the stupid rule((I'll only call ,,,if u call me first)))what is this.. a Date..yukkkkkkkk……
IN ENGLISH (((I BELIEVE SHOULD MAKE AN EFFORT)).
At last I'm going to live my life trying to tone down the obsessive side of me(((is any1 buying that!!!)))I said I'll try. I'm not making any PROMISES…………..CAPISH!!!???!!
Thursday, May 3, 2007
A day to remember
I haven’t written anything in a couple of weeks. I was actually extremely busy. .no. maybe I should wipe that. I'm sooo lying. I wasn’t busy..i mean a few interesting things have happened. but that...uhhhhhhh sorry i will stop babbling now and I promise from now on i will start making sense.. ok..sooooooooo
First of all there was a cultural exhibition about Somalia that i wanted to go to badly ..nd 4 some reason i had this idea that i'll go there and i'll feel music in my heart and see the girls working there and start hugging each and ever1 of them 4 their amazing effort,, ,wellllllll guess again..it didn’t quiet go like that..actually it was the opposite i got a really cool parking space and was all excited to meet the people there and get to know them well..what happened was..i felt like a complete stranger from the minute i walked in(((ok i was a stranger they never saw me be4)but is it naive to expect any Somali girl to be friendly just b/c we share the nationally. .maybe. .u tell me!!!!
I started smiling to evey1 there and saying hiiii..salammm.. complimented their work(did i mention i'm really shy and i always try to fight that feeling) and I made a poor attempt to make small talk but they weren’t on the same planet that I was.,and even if they were they would've probably ignored me anyaways.. my PRIDE ..owchh
I said bye to the only girll i knew and drove back home ..man was i glad that I didn't let my dad drop me over there. I would've been stuck there4 hours...
The second incident was the forming of the very first student union in kw (for Somali students of course)...woww..sounds exciting right!!!..NO to me.IT WAS .aa auu. .!!!!I couldn’t care less about it..i just wanted to sleep and relax on the weekend but somehow my friends got me really excited and with the dress code rule that my dad inforced . .WHAT..I'M I 12!!I couldn’t wear any of my cool outfits so every1 i knew was defiantly going to dress up with make up and allll..mashallah and i will be the only weird chick with clothes that belong to the 17th century. .NOOOO THANKS
After I've already decided to stay at home. my friends kept calling..r u ..going..nooo..thatz a big deal .u should come..bla bla bla..so basically i got dragged there thinking i'll have the worst time ever. but guess what.....not only did i enjoy being there(((MUCH)but i'm seriously considering running 4 a position next yr...wowah...the atmosphere was quiet and great,. only students...boys included of course ..hehehe...i honestly felt like i matter. I wanted to scream i'm A Somali and proud>>>>>> i have rights and i will demand what i feel is mine ..it was a good day. .a day 2 remember....
First of all there was a cultural exhibition about Somalia that i wanted to go to badly ..nd 4 some reason i had this idea that i'll go there and i'll feel music in my heart and see the girls working there and start hugging each and ever1 of them 4 their amazing effort,, ,wellllllll guess again..it didn’t quiet go like that..actually it was the opposite i got a really cool parking space and was all excited to meet the people there and get to know them well..what happened was..i felt like a complete stranger from the minute i walked in(((ok i was a stranger they never saw me be4)but is it naive to expect any Somali girl to be friendly just b/c we share the nationally. .maybe. .u tell me!!!!
I started smiling to evey1 there and saying hiiii..salammm.. complimented their work(did i mention i'm really shy and i always try to fight that feeling) and I made a poor attempt to make small talk but they weren’t on the same planet that I was.,and even if they were they would've probably ignored me anyaways.. my PRIDE ..owchh
I said bye to the only girll i knew and drove back home ..man was i glad that I didn't let my dad drop me over there. I would've been stuck there4 hours...
The second incident was the forming of the very first student union in kw (for Somali students of course)...woww..sounds exciting right!!!..NO to me.IT WAS .aa auu. .!!!!I couldn’t care less about it..i just wanted to sleep and relax on the weekend but somehow my friends got me really excited and with the dress code rule that my dad inforced . .WHAT..I'M I 12!!I couldn’t wear any of my cool outfits so every1 i knew was defiantly going to dress up with make up and allll..mashallah and i will be the only weird chick with clothes that belong to the 17th century. .NOOOO THANKS
After I've already decided to stay at home. my friends kept calling..r u ..going..nooo..thatz a big deal .u should come..bla bla bla..so basically i got dragged there thinking i'll have the worst time ever. but guess what.....not only did i enjoy being there(((MUCH)but i'm seriously considering running 4 a position next yr...wowah...the atmosphere was quiet and great,. only students...boys included of course ..hehehe...i honestly felt like i matter. I wanted to scream i'm A Somali and proud>>>>>> i have rights and i will demand what i feel is mine ..it was a good day. .a day 2 remember....
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