I'm a big girl
……..So I turned 22 last week and I feel GREAT. Never did I imagine in a million yr that I'll ever experience a HAPPY birthday. Lol
normally,i sit in my room all alone feeling completely miserable thinking about how I didn't change one bit from how i was the yr before. But thiz yr i did change(or i think so) ..woww..Finally I'm starting to feel that my life is on track.
Do not judge plz
I'm sick and tired of my Ppl judging me when they find out what my JOB iz.i'm sorry that I didn't choose to become a nurse like the 1000 girl I know(mashallah I admire how brave they r dealing with blood n all that).n maybe my job is hard and under paid n maybe I didn't exactly Choose it(I got a scholarship).but still, I learned to accept it and I'm trying to stay positive b/c when I start working next Week inshallah.i'm planning TO LOVE IT .OK
I do not need a boyfriend
I don't. I'm happy being by myself and I don't plan on getting one anytime soon. I'm happily single. (Ill keep saying that over n over b/c maybe then I'll start believing it.)Loll
On a more serious note .I went out with a couple of girls the other day and they made me feel like a saint. One was fishing for the most allegeable bachelor to pay her BILLS. but no luck since she has dated most of the guyz in the mall. The other one was married who befriended a 19 yr old who's desperately in love with her to raise her selfestam.THESE ppl are not my friends and I'm not sure I want to be seen with them again. God knows ppl might start thinking I'm one of them.but honestly after the whole ordeal that
they made me go through with every jerk,loser following us the entire time (on foot and in my car).i honestly thought I'm cured.i mean who would want to be with any of those jerks .but on my way homeI stopped at the grocery store and saw a 6 feet tall guy
(love tall guys, I'm tall myself)black (his skin is the exact shade of my favorite chocolate bar .yumy)
who is driving a BLACK HUMMER(my favorite car, I literally
get dizzy when I see that car.I'M NOT KIDDING.)
And bam I'm back to singing my favorite SONG ..I don't…..BLA BLA BLA
Wednesday, February 27, 2008
Thursday, February 7, 2008
I'm I overreacting ….?!!
My best friend and I just had a heated discussion about and I quote ' my obsession' of my new car while I only see it as a normal thing…
For a while I've been driving my old sister/brother's car that belonged to my dad at some point.
MEANING...IT WAS AN OLD CAR and it didn't look very well on the outside either.
On the other hand, My new car is a brand new model and it's really nice it's no lancer or corolla 'Somalis favorite cars' .it's way more expensive and it was my father's graduation present for me. No one has ever given me a gift like that .I've only had it for less than two weeks, and the fear of getting into an accident and trashing my car never leaves me 4 one mint. The problem is my friend asked if I could give her a ride somewhere (to a really crowded place)of course I panicked and said I really don't think I can do it .then I thought about it for a mint and figured that it won't that crowded in the morning but the fact that I've never been there by myself scares me ,and even though that she knows how to get there .I had nightmares of her showing me the way and me maybe misinterpreting something she said and causing an accident .I don't know. I just don't take directions too well while driving (my mum started this whole irrational fair by saying: weren't we suppose to go there (WHEN WE PASS THE DAMN EXIT)UKH
Anyways I told my friend that I'm really not sure about this and then she freaked me out by saying how ppl CAN CRASH INTO MY CAR or scratch it or whatever when I'm not around and I should take it easy or whatever .anyways I had a (A PANICK ATTACK )I 'm not kidding. I couldn't breath 4 a mint and I couldn't believe HOW could she could scare me like this .I'm already scared and I don't NEED anyone to make me feel even worse .I love my friend ,she used to understand me better than ANYONE BT I'M SCARED NOW SHE thinks I'm rubbing this in her face(me having a car while she can't have one right now).I don't want to be the 'drama queen' or be overprotective bt I honestly don't think it's my fault.
I'M HAVING THE BEST TIME OF MY LIFE. I loveeee my car. I love going out and racing with my friends, hanging and all that .even going to the supermarket is more fun b/c of my new ride. just b/c I don't WANT someone with dirty feet to get into my car or just b/c I'm scared of going to new places doez NOT make me a weirdo.doez it?
For a while I've been driving my old sister/brother's car that belonged to my dad at some point.
MEANING...IT WAS AN OLD CAR and it didn't look very well on the outside either.
On the other hand, My new car is a brand new model and it's really nice it's no lancer or corolla 'Somalis favorite cars' .it's way more expensive and it was my father's graduation present for me. No one has ever given me a gift like that .I've only had it for less than two weeks, and the fear of getting into an accident and trashing my car never leaves me 4 one mint. The problem is my friend asked if I could give her a ride somewhere (to a really crowded place)of course I panicked and said I really don't think I can do it .then I thought about it for a mint and figured that it won't that crowded in the morning but the fact that I've never been there by myself scares me ,and even though that she knows how to get there .I had nightmares of her showing me the way and me maybe misinterpreting something she said and causing an accident .I don't know. I just don't take directions too well while driving (my mum started this whole irrational fair by saying: weren't we suppose to go there (WHEN WE PASS THE DAMN EXIT)UKH
Anyways I told my friend that I'm really not sure about this and then she freaked me out by saying how ppl CAN CRASH INTO MY CAR or scratch it or whatever when I'm not around and I should take it easy or whatever .anyways I had a (A PANICK ATTACK )I 'm not kidding. I couldn't breath 4 a mint and I couldn't believe HOW could she could scare me like this .I'm already scared and I don't NEED anyone to make me feel even worse .I love my friend ,she used to understand me better than ANYONE BT I'M SCARED NOW SHE thinks I'm rubbing this in her face(me having a car while she can't have one right now).I don't want to be the 'drama queen' or be overprotective bt I honestly don't think it's my fault.
I'M HAVING THE BEST TIME OF MY LIFE. I loveeee my car. I love going out and racing with my friends, hanging and all that .even going to the supermarket is more fun b/c of my new ride. just b/c I don't WANT someone with dirty feet to get into my car or just b/c I'm scared of going to new places doez NOT make me a weirdo.doez it?
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