Fee

Fee is a typical Somali friend!!!u might wonder ,what does that mean, well, fee is loud (no surprise here),talkative, that's where our language comes in handy ,won't take crap from anyone ,knows what she wants and no one can ever persuade her into doing something she does not like, fee is honest ,she will tell it as it is ,she won't lie to you no matter what, my favorite thing about her is how she is genuinely fascinated by seeing matho ppl and is often pissed of when they r not around ,(if there is a song on TV with small children but no matho kids ,she'll start lashing out 3altv)did I mention she used to have a black stamp with a Black Barbie when she was in school, simply saying what would I want with a stamp of cadaan Barbie)anyways I absolutely love this girlll.

After negotiations that went on for months ,I finally convinced my friend fee that I'm an OK driver and it's actually safe to ride with me so unexpectedly after I almost gave up ,she agreed to go out, I feel privileged to be the first person to show her the cool places in KW*
Anyways ,I got up that morning and I always use the alarm in my phone so when I heard the noise (I don't remember I was asleep)I pressed something and the next thing I knew is me waking up n hour late(that hour was my grooming time)owch. anyways ,I was still too excited to let anything put me down so I wore my bright yellow top,(I know a crazy color)and jeans and put on a light make up and rushed to reach my lecture on time,of course I was late, normally I drive fasttttt but the radio station had these slow love songs so I took the right lane and basically forgot(everything)except the song…
The moment I entered my class ,it was soo weird almost all the girls were gazing my way ,some with approval looks.some with plain (what the hell is up with here 2day look),,well u see the thing is ,I ALWAYS wear black cabaya and b'ack shilla(xijab)to college ,so it was a bit unusual for me to all of a sudden change my style and wear such a bight color ,I forgot to add ,no matter what u wear or do ppl will still give u looks its caadiii around here,,,
my prof decided that he have so much to do and he stayed for half the lecture only ,when he said would u like us to stop now (we all went)YAAAAAAA…loll..i felt as if I'm back to kindergarten …..while I as waiting for feeI told M that I 'm soo excited and normally when I'm that excited something goes wrong,after 5 mintz ,fee called saying that Zanob won't be able to come cuz her friend was depressed and she has to stay and cheer her up,,uhh,,!!!!!(that was sad ,,I was looking forward for her to join us)
Ok.no bigy,I won't let that upset me, fee ,mimi and myself had a good time …we went out ,ate, talked ,wandered around and ..everything went great(except of the deadly stares and raised eyebrows she gave anyone who dared to look our way,(funny)and the cool mathoo family we saw there with matching braids ,,(really amazing)
It was an ordinary day 4 many ppl,but to me and fee it was everything BUT ordinary.

Opposite attract. Maybe not!!

2day I was discussing an interesting topic with my friend.:: what makes ppl become friends ,how does that happen…by chance…for a reason or.. by
determination(asking that person to be your friend))…dunno I haven’t done it thought but maybe other ppl have so I have 2 include it((weirdoos))!!!…
back to my topic,,,I found that am always looking for the same qualities that I have in ppl ,and It suddenly hit me… that is why I'm not making (or looking for)tons on friends, really!!!!!
And the shocking part is, I can sense my type ((loll, I'm not sure if I can say my type. I sound a bit boyish)) to explain more. The only ppl who I've gotten really close with r not very social, they r trust worthy. Trust worthy. I KNOW I'VE SAD IT TWICE..BUG OFF..!!!! even if they sound very open and friendly from the outside ,they have a lot to deal with in the inside, if u saw my girll ..(A)U WILL SWERA that she knows every single girl in her college. That's how friendly she is. but the only one who she lets inside, is myself…luv u girlllll…there's my other girllllll(you no who you r ..lolllll))),,.we have so much in common ,,,it's getting scary…!!!!!! Even our differences r not that big. Nothing I can't handle…heheheee..i always wonder if I had a sister close to my age. would I feel so attached to my friends. Or...is it normalllllll,,,,I need an answer.quick..God…..i think I have alot of soul searching to do ,,
but NOT noww after the finals:-(

A friend... OR A colleague

As I might've mentioned be4 ,the life style enforced by parents doesn’t give me the chance to socialize and hang with my as friends as much as I want 2..also,I was never a big fan of the 12 girls group who say that they're ..(((best friends )but know nothing about each other ,,that’s why I was more than pleased by the few friends I had,, ,specially a particular girl who shares my name. but RECENTLY….
I'm staring to feel more and more confused each day. I hate being clueless. I need to be in control of my life or at least know where its headed….MY PROBLEM IS. I haven’t heard from my very close friend in a couple of weeks and I'm staring to get worried. .in her defense I could give u 10 thousand reasons why she cant keep in touch in the moment(((the finals r just around the corner + other reasons I wont dream on mentioning in my blog))…….that's not the real problem…I think for a while now I started to feel that our lives r very different. we hardly share the same interests anymore(((I really can't tell. Did she grew up real quick or I'm I a bit immature…)))I don't mind about all that,, ,I just like TO BE NEEDED…I completely understand about how logical ,rational ,,she is. but for some stupid reason I wish she could put that aside for a minute and agree to do something. Just b/c she missed me. not after everything else is in order and Finally she remembered she had a friend. .uhhh…THE NEW PROBLEM I'M FACING NOW is how can I tell the difference between a friend and a colleague…seriously that’s a big problem(((and don't give me the whole colleague first ,,later on a friend))!! What !!! I've known these girls 4 over a yr now and sometimes I feel THAT I',M totally and utterly LOST…the main thing 4 me now is that I don’t want to loose contact with sum of them.. specially ((…… n…..)I love how u can see their face changing when they see you, wanting to spend time with u just b/c of who you are and not b/c they want something of u(((I met 2 many blood suckers in my life ,I'm truly praying that they didn't scar me for life)…I genuinely feel that am at a crossroad now, I can either continue to be friendly or I could do more ,I could initiate plans to meet them somewhere(((I 've already done that with some of them)or maybe do something simple like call them first instead of following the stupid rule((I'll only call ,,,if u call me first)))what is this.. a Date..yukkkkkkkk……
IN ENGLISH (((I BELIEVE SHOULD MAKE AN EFFORT)).
At last I'm going to live my life trying to tone down the obsessive side of me(((is any1 buying that!!!)))I said I'll try. I'm not making any PROMISES…………..CAPISH!!!???!!