Somali MATTERS

(((be4 I start telling what happened with me 2day I will briefly say who Adbillahi yusef is::adbillahi is the ((president of Somalia)) who not only brought Ethiopia (somali's worst enemy to the country)but started a war that caused humdreds of injured civilians and an equal number of deaths. And any1 who supports him does so(sadly) for tribal reasons only and nothing else .sooo here we go………….
While I was getting ready to leave my college to attend a lecture in another building I noticed my friend*Fee *who always puts a smile on my face, not looking like her usual self and dragging her feet on the stairs disconnected from whatever is going on around here…..
Hey ((fee))I said: ..wuts up with u 2day???
Fee: nothing. .i'm ok..
Me: you're not ok. .what happened. .u know u can't hide anything from me.!.
Fee: it's just that my cousins were killed in the war in Mogadishu..!!!
Me:shocked..i'm sorry 7ayatiii….i feel terrible. did u know them…
Fee:no ..But I've been wondering who's going to support his family now..!!!
Me.: (suggesting.) .maybe his family should go to hargesia .(my hometown)or burco(her hometown)its safe there u know…
Fee: nodding her head..((still feeling sad…))
Me…I hope that this devil who calls himself president burns in hill
Her:and what. .Ethiopia is innocent??…is that what you're saying?
Me:of course not..but they were invited to Somalia ..Weren't they? He invited them…((feeling furious I decided to drop the subject)))I just told her it was his time and she should accept Allah's will but what I couldn’t add is after everything that he has done how could you support him. Don't u have eyes!!!! can't u see what's happening in Mogadishu now..?!!!
I'm through discussing Somali matters with girls my age...it infuriates me. how some pepole can be so blind and refuse to see the SAD..SAD..truth..but that’s it for me I'm done..if I heard another girl telling me that this is our president and we should respect him no matter what…I will explode. uhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

WAR

The other day I was supposed to prep for a difficult exame. .so like I always do when I'm avoiding something I switched on the tv and for my surprise I saw nothing worth watching. I mean what happened ..its barely 9 pm..i cant start studying now. I needed a distraction..!!!!!When I finally gave up and wanted to leave a torture scene of a teen Vietnamese girl that caught my eye(((normally I don’t watch war or action movies .but hey I had an exam soooo So all of a sudden Everything on TV seemed great)) that movie was based on a true story about a little girl who worked her way up…and survived all the misfortune that took place in her life..the thing a about movie was somehow I could relate. I've never lived in a remotely close situation to what she faced but my country is going through a war now .and I can't do nothing about it…that makes feel very small.nd helpless in every way.ALSO, the mother in the movie reminded me of my own, her courage., the way she struggled in life and how she keeps on giving from heart and asks 4 nothing in return..MUM …I appreciate everything she'de done for me and I Will(inshalla)make her very proud..

Is It Only Me,,OR?!!!

I often wonder how come every1 else my age knows exactly what they want of life. Who they are .. …and what is unique about them…..
Okk!!maybe not exactly ..but again ..i seriously doubt that there is anyone like me. I often think twice when I'm asked a simple question :.do u agree with ((a))or ((b))I start saying I agree with a and my friend can easily persuade me and I might end up saying b.(((I really wish I can stand my ground and utter my true opinion, but the real issue is ((what is that)).!!!! ohh..on a different occasion I could be stubborn and stick with one opinion that I don’t believe in out of spite ..
Growing up I was very sheltered by my parents. They were (still are)extremely protective and that showed clearly in my personality I became very dependant. .extremely .fragile and naive. I honestly believe that if I haven’t got in into college I would've probably been the same old grill who afraid of everything new and believes every1 she sees…
But NoW.Uhh don’t expect 2 mucch..i'm still a bit sensitive ..naive in some situations but like my best friend ((A)) always tells me ::at least now. I know when I'm being naive or overly sensitive and I try to change that one way or another. this small revelation didn’t come out of the blue but I've been stung by more than one snake who (now I thank very much)and showed that that being me won't help me survive ,,as a result of those experiences I became quiet bitter and sarcastic but I also came to appreciate ppl who have good qualities soo much more than I did before. now I try to find the good in people first but if that didn’t work I try to keep things to myself and act friendly((I'm not the nicest girl in the world with ppl I don’t like but I make a genuine effort to be that way) i know that I have so much to change in me be4 I can be the best I can be and I will keep my faith in Allah that this day will come soon..sooooner than I think(hopefully)

My Very First Blog

wowwww...finally i took a positive step and did something that i've always wanted to do,,and since this is my first blog i think i ought to be introducing myself:i'm a somali girl ...living in the Arabian Gulf ..trying to find myplace in this world and hoping for the best>>>